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and sometimes you can't help but to wonder was it their fault or yours.

yours - because you couldn't blend in, because you couldn't make the effort to be their friend because all you did was just helplessly sitting there and being by yourself. because you know what friends do to you, they eventually run off somewhere else after they are done with you.

ya that's why i don't bother making friends
cause i think that everyone comes to you for a reason and that's fucked up. i can't help to think if i am an actual burden or an actual friend to that one person. I can't help but to feel all this, but look. when you don't make a friend table turns and it's your fault
 it's your fault you never made a friend, its not their fault for not asking you out for a meal

it's your fault, it's your fucking fault for being such a burden
it's my fucking fault for not being able to open that bloody mouth of mine.