little wanderlust

that urge to do something, well - I made my little bucketlist that I hope I'd one day accomplish. 

I've never been much of a dare devil, first up, I hate heights so someone like me would never do anything that involves jumping from a plane or a cliff. I would probably have a heart failure if I do so though.

I've always wanted to see the world, thus that Singapore Girl dream came alive. I have always longed to open the wanderlust doors within me, but now i'm in Uni, and maybe after I graduate I would try once or twice again, but I know I'm going to see the world before I ever settle down.

Kids are gonna be a burden and I wanna see snow before anything happens. So, I know it's a selfish mindset, but..... what better way to see the world first than to do it after graduation and before settling down. I mean, yes it's selfish but, the thing is if you really like that place, you could add it to the "family trippin' list" otherwise, cross it out.

Well, that's my plan. and with that dream, a large pay check has to come through first. I've that wish to have my passport stamped with all sorts of country stamped onto it though.

Eating the freshest Sashimi in Japan, Visiting Niagara falls in Canada, Shopping till your drop at New York, Smelling the freshest baguette in France, Sitting on the red London bus, Imagine seeing the northern lights in Norway. Well that's my goal.

lets talk about. Me.

Be nice to others, even if they aren't nice to you. 

I think 2k15 has taught me a whole bunch of things, and now we are nearing the end of the year. I'm even planning my 21st birthday!!!!!!!

I like the happy things in life. I could spend hours in an orphanage or talk go to a hospice and spend my birthday there. Actually that would sound ideal. I used to like doing things like that whenever I felt lonely. I felt like socializing was never important in my life, my friends could have easily been an elderly in an old folks home or a orphan kid, or even a dying kid..... yea. That would have been fun. I think that makes me really happy. When I know I've done something in my life to have impact yours. Flowers and chocolates doesn't beat that happiness. It's a different kind of happy that I'm willing to do and I kinda miss doing it back in Singapore.

Well, Singapore....... I'm going back soon! Afew weeks more and it's home. 2015 hasn't been the easiest. Even if people say "erm, but you stay with your boyfriend you're literally living the life". nah - I don't think I've been living my life, I think I kinda jumped onto the clingy boat when I came here. No doubt it's been a big joy, but we do get fights and we aren't labeled an ordinary couple anymore I guess. It's odd yet it's really fun. I've never regretted a day I moved here. Maybe I did, once or twice when we jump into huge huge fights, but I think what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I hope.

It's been tough living out of home. Doing your own laundry, cooking and cleaning your own mess. Literally forcing yourself to do things you hate and have never done in the past 20years of your life. Trust me, I've never worked a vacuum cleaner, the laundry machine or even wash the dishes. I was kinda spoilt though, cause my mom would have told me "don't wash the dishes, your hands will turn wrinkly" so yea..... that's why I never did it. Life's been a big eye opener here. You get to be on your own and it gets fun at times, but home is where the heart is and I do miss home. I miss my friends and that's one of the hardest part to deal with because you think that they would forget you when you're back...... I don't know if they do though. But truth is I do miss them. I miss the food and my dog. I left so many things behind and I really really do miss home.
It isn't the same moving 11 hours away. It honestly does feel like crap sometimes. but i'm getting there.

im getting there............





anyhow, if I had my birthday...... I was thinking an outdoor whimsical tea part at 4pm at Spruce hahaha. I haven't found an ideal place yet, but for now that's what I thought. Otherwise..... i'm kinda out of options.

sometimes

I wish I had a voice, sometimes. 
I wish I could express what I was feeling, freely.
I wish I was never stuck in the bottle of my own emotions.

Taken for granted -
It's what I feel, so, ask yourself, do you? Do you take me as and when you want?
And after this question pops in my head, the next would be:
"Do you think you deserve me?"

In fact, who do I deserve. Part of me tells me that i'm the girl that's too nice, the other side tells me I deserve nothing.

nothing at all.

two ordinary, one extraordinary.

Hi!
I may have never introduced him, but hey, here's Brian. He's mine, oops no. He's my boyfriend. I met him over a year ago, and over a year ago he asked me under the rain "would you be my girlfriend?" and i said "yesssssssssssssssssssssssss". I didn't know what I was getting myself but into, but whatever. Not to side track.
But hey, we are two people living the extraordinary in our life. and no we aren't the ideal couple, infact we could be the strangest kind of couple cause we don't fight, we have deep discussions.

Here we go.
I met him a year ago!!!!!!! and more, but I got together with him a year ago!!!!!!! and i didn't know where things were going, I was scared, if he broke my heart like all the other people that did...... but he hasn't dropped my heart yet despite my weight gain.

It's been a year that we have been together, but it's been 6/7 months we have been living together. I know crazy. It has been craziest 7 months that we have been together. The craziest infact. Yes we are like every ordinary couple, we do fight. It was a piece of cake when we first started out, but honestly we were both scared. I was. I had a huge culture shock and he was gonna see me 24/7. Imagine that.

\Okay I'm going too fast.

So one year ago.
There's two sides to our love story but what everyone knows is, we had the longest lunch date. 6 hours. I sat with a stranger for lunch for 6 hours and ditched my bff for that charismatic smile.
And here goes, I had my first sneak out by going for supper with him. He asked if I wanted to grab some tau huay, and I sneaked cause I wanted to see more of him.
I don't know if he saw something in me, but I wanted to know so much more about him.
Well, cause my parents were out of town so sneaking out was easy and prior to the date my parents were supposed to arrive, he asked me to spend my last night with him at somewhere special.
So I took hopped into his car and took the midnight drive.
Here's my favorite part. So I asked him
W: "what do you look for in a girl?"
B: "Communication"
W: "So have you found someone like that yet?"
B: "Well, there this girl"
B: "She majors in communication and right infront of me"

hahaha ok, that was my favorite. So the subsequent days there wasn't sneaking out for suppers, so we had lunches. And one day after we were done with lunch. He told me
B: "I wanted to do something since the other day, for quite sometime now"
W: "What?"
B: "I want to kiss you"
and the best part was, the moment he said that he shun away cause he was soooooo shy. So i hopped over and stole his kiss.

Well, I knew he was into me cause he grabbed my hand.

So that was relatively how we started.

He's been the most amazing guy I've met. Though he has his complicated days, he's still the best. He cooks for me when I get sick, check my temperature constantly when I'm down with a fever, takes me to the doctor. Cooks for me whatever I crave for. Spoils me once in awhile. Blow dry my hair just because I get lazy. Fetches me around whenever I need it. Dances with me whenever I feel like it. Perks me up whenever I'm down.
He basically takes care of me, and I know he loves me even if he doesn't say it.

It's been a year and I would say it was not easy.
There were times I wanted to give up, fall and just punch him in the face cause he gets annoying and bossy. But truth is, he loves me, and sometimes all that annoying side and whatever he does - there's a reason for it whether I like it or not.

He's the best thing I ever had, and he's someone worth holding on to.
I know there are days that we both feel like beating ourselves up because our relationship do suck sometimes, we can fight.... no we actually have deep disucssions about our relationship, and we talk for hours about it. But that's how we are. We do fight but we still love each other.
We don't know what the future may hold, we don't know if we would be together the following year, but one thing I know is that I'm gonna try. I'm going to want to keep this.
I know I'm going to invest in this relationship till I know I've done enough, but for now. I'm not going to let go. I am going to continue journeying this relationship. I get scared thinking about it cause there's so much to journey and learn about with him, but he's gonna be worth it.

Are you ready B?
Happy Anniversary.