lets talk about. Me.

Be nice to others, even if they aren't nice to you. 

I think 2k15 has taught me a whole bunch of things, and now we are nearing the end of the year. I'm even planning my 21st birthday!!!!!!!

I like the happy things in life. I could spend hours in an orphanage or talk go to a hospice and spend my birthday there. Actually that would sound ideal. I used to like doing things like that whenever I felt lonely. I felt like socializing was never important in my life, my friends could have easily been an elderly in an old folks home or a orphan kid, or even a dying kid..... yea. That would have been fun. I think that makes me really happy. When I know I've done something in my life to have impact yours. Flowers and chocolates doesn't beat that happiness. It's a different kind of happy that I'm willing to do and I kinda miss doing it back in Singapore.

Well, Singapore....... I'm going back soon! Afew weeks more and it's home. 2015 hasn't been the easiest. Even if people say "erm, but you stay with your boyfriend you're literally living the life". nah - I don't think I've been living my life, I think I kinda jumped onto the clingy boat when I came here. No doubt it's been a big joy, but we do get fights and we aren't labeled an ordinary couple anymore I guess. It's odd yet it's really fun. I've never regretted a day I moved here. Maybe I did, once or twice when we jump into huge huge fights, but I think what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I hope.

It's been tough living out of home. Doing your own laundry, cooking and cleaning your own mess. Literally forcing yourself to do things you hate and have never done in the past 20years of your life. Trust me, I've never worked a vacuum cleaner, the laundry machine or even wash the dishes. I was kinda spoilt though, cause my mom would have told me "don't wash the dishes, your hands will turn wrinkly" so yea..... that's why I never did it. Life's been a big eye opener here. You get to be on your own and it gets fun at times, but home is where the heart is and I do miss home. I miss my friends and that's one of the hardest part to deal with because you think that they would forget you when you're back...... I don't know if they do though. But truth is I do miss them. I miss the food and my dog. I left so many things behind and I really really do miss home.
It isn't the same moving 11 hours away. It honestly does feel like crap sometimes. but i'm getting there.

im getting there............





anyhow, if I had my birthday...... I was thinking an outdoor whimsical tea part at 4pm at Spruce hahaha. I haven't found an ideal place yet, but for now that's what I thought. Otherwise..... i'm kinda out of options.